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Phoenix with a Headache: Videos and a Touch of Writing
April 26th, 2009
06:41 pm - New story!
Do you have ears to hear? Do you have eyes to read? "He Who Has Ears to Hear" was written for CRW 3110-01, my advanced-fiction workshop, and has now been published on What's White Is Really Grey!
Current Location: Tallahassee, FL
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Jars of Clay – “Love Is the Protest”
April 8th, 2009
April 7th, 2009
02:46 am - Raven Songs 101
BUY RAVEN SONGS 101 ON AMAZON
While Kevin Max's voice is unparalleled, oftentimes the impact or meaning of the words he's singing is weakened by the surrounding music. The spoken-word pieces he put on Stereotype Be and Crashing Gates had a lyrical punch that was never quite matched by the songs that greatly outnumbered them. From the get-go you know that Raven Songs 101 is an entirely different beast from what Max has done before. The album maintains a kind of lurching momentum, swaying between building up and slowing down. The music and sounds are the bare minimum—they sound nothing like "I Went Over the Edge of the World" or "Crashing Gates"—and while this is off-putting at first, it ultimately works in keeping the lyrics at the forefront and keeping their punch strong. Raven Songs 101 is a hard, haunting pill to swallow, but it is most definitely a rewarding listen worth every penny spent.
Highlights: "Black Leather and a Microphone," "Swing," "River," "Time the Fever to a Boil."
While Kevin Max's voice is unparalleled, oftentimes the impact or meaning of the words he's singing is weakened by the surrounding music. The spoken-word pieces he put on Stereotype Be and Crashing Gates had a lyrical punch that was never quite matched by the songs that greatly outnumbered them. From the get-go you know that Raven Songs 101 is an entirely different beast from what Max has done before. The album maintains a kind of lurching momentum, swaying between building up and slowing down. The music and sounds are the bare minimum—they sound nothing like "I Went Over the Edge of the World" or "Crashing Gates"—and while this is off-putting at first, it ultimately works in keeping the lyrics at the forefront and keeping their punch strong. Raven Songs 101 is a hard, haunting pill to swallow, but it is most definitely a rewarding listen worth every penny spent.
Highlights: "Black Leather and a Microphone," "Swing," "River," "Time the Fever to a Boil."
Current Location: Tallahassee, FL
Current Music: Kevin Max – Raven Songs 101
April 5th, 2009
06:45 pm - [Playlist] Wake Up, Idiot! Round 2
Wake Up, Idiot! Round 2 (26 January 2008) – 47:36
1. Project 86 – "The Forces of Radio Have Dropped a Viper into the Rhythm Section"
2. Ace Troubleshooter – "Make It Right"
3. Bleach – "Get Up"
4. Skillet – "Cycle Down"
5. Radiohead – "I Might Be Wrong"
6. Gnarls Barkley – "Crazy"
7. Kevin Max – "Dead-End Moon"
8. Modest Mouse – "We've Got Everything"
9. Jimmy Eat World – "Bleed American / Salt Sweat Sugar"
10. dc Talk – "The Truth"
11. Blindside – "My Alibi"
12. Switchfoot – "Love Is the Movement"
1. Project 86 – "The Forces of Radio Have Dropped a Viper into the Rhythm Section"
2. Ace Troubleshooter – "Make It Right"
3. Bleach – "Get Up"
4. Skillet – "Cycle Down"
5. Radiohead – "I Might Be Wrong"
6. Gnarls Barkley – "Crazy"
7. Kevin Max – "Dead-End Moon"
8. Modest Mouse – "We've Got Everything"
9. Jimmy Eat World – "Bleed American / Salt Sweat Sugar"
10. dc Talk – "The Truth"
11. Blindside – "My Alibi"
12. Switchfoot – "Love Is the Movement"
"The Forces of Radio . . . " is to jolt me awake, "Make It Right" is supposed to make me move, and "Get Up" is supposed to keep me going. The rest were just tacked on so I wouldn't burn a CD with a mere three tracks.
Current Location: Tallahassee, FL
Current Music: Blindside – “My Alibi”
April 1st, 2009
01:46 am - WHAT'S WHITE IS REALLY GREY
Current Location: Tallahassee, FL
Current Music: Flo Rida – “Right Round”
12:12 am - VF@FS
Veritas Forum at Florida State, 31 March 2009: Is There Evidence for God? Talk by Dr. William Lane Craig.
http://www.mediafire.com/?ymlzmmnicoz
Current Location: Tallahassee, FL
Current Music: Kevin Rudolf – “Let It Rock”
March 29th, 2009
11:17 pm - [Playlist] A few playlists
Dave Wanted Some Fleet Foxes (13 March 2009) – 40:09
1. The Smashing Pumpkins – "Bullet with Butterfly Wings"
2. Fleet Foxes – "Tiger Mountain Peasant Song"
3. Fleet Foxes – "Oliver James"
4. Fleet Foxes – "He Doesn't Know Why"
5. Fleet Foxes – "White Winter Hymnal"
6. The Smashing Pumpkins – "1979"
7. Levek – "Skinny Bike"
8. The Beach Boys – "Sloop John B"
9. Blue Öyster Cult – "(Don't Fear) The Reaper"
10. Rush – "Vital Signs"
11. The Who – "Pinball Wizard"
Waiting for Relief (14 March 2009) – 85:41
1. Tears for Fears – "Everybody Wants to Rule the World"
2. Arcade Fire – "Keep the Car Running"
3. Jars of Clay – "Love Is the Protest"
4. Franz Ferdinand – "Turn It On"
5. Jimmy Eat World – "Bleed American / Salt Sweat Sugar"
6. Smash Mouth – "Then the Morning Comes"
7. Red Hot Chili Peppers – "Road Trippin' "
8. Adam Again – "River on Fire"
9. Pearl Jam – "Black"
10. Oasis – "Falling Down"
11. Queens of the Stone Age – "The Sky Is Fallin' "
12. Neon Horse – "Crazy Daisy"
13. Tait – "Electric Avenue"
14. Boston – "Peace of Mind"
15. Beck – "E-Pro"
16. Mute Math – "Chaos"
17. Pink Floyd – "Keep Talking"
18. Kevin Max – "Stay"
19. dc Talk – "Red Letters"
20. Adam Again – "Don't Cry"
The Soundtrack That Never Got Played (20 March 2009) – 52:06
1. Wolfmother – "Joker & the Thief"
2. Queens of the Stone Age – "A Song for the Dead"
3. Franz Ferdinand – "Lucid Dreams"
4. Jars of Clay – "Revolution"
5. Kevin Max – "Out of the Wild"
6. Led Zeppelin – "The Song Remains the Same"
7. Oasis – "The Masterplan"
8. Radiohead – "Exit Music (For a Film)"
9. Jimmy Eat World – "Get It Faster"
10. The Dave Brubeck Quartet – "Unsquare Dance"
11. The Police – "Murder by Numbers"
The Soundtrack That Really Never Got Played (22 March 2009) – 55:51
1. Mute Math – "Typical"
2. Aerosmith – "Back in the Saddle"
3. Arctic Monkeys – "Brianstorm"
4. Van Halen – "Panama"
5. Gnarls Barkley – "Would-Be Killer"
6. Deep Purple – "Space Truckin' "
7. Led Zeppelin – "We're Gonna Groove"
8. The Smashing Pumpkins – "We Only Come Out at Night"
9. Smash Mouth – "Walkin' on the Sun"
10. ZZ Top – "Cheap Sunglasses"
11. Oasis – "Some Might Say"
12. Red Hot Chili Peppers – "Dani California"
13. Pink Floyd – "High Hopes"
1. The Smashing Pumpkins – "Bullet with Butterfly Wings"
2. Fleet Foxes – "Tiger Mountain Peasant Song"
3. Fleet Foxes – "Oliver James"
4. Fleet Foxes – "He Doesn't Know Why"
5. Fleet Foxes – "White Winter Hymnal"
6. The Smashing Pumpkins – "1979"
7. Levek – "Skinny Bike"
8. The Beach Boys – "Sloop John B"
9. Blue Öyster Cult – "(Don't Fear) The Reaper"
10. Rush – "Vital Signs"
11. The Who – "Pinball Wizard"
I made this on the drive back from RUFSU's mission trip. I had played Fleet Foxes on the drive up and Dave wanted to hear some of the album on the way back. I had "Bullet with Butterfly Wings" perpetually stuck in my head, so I bookended the four Fleet Foxes songs with The Smashing Pumpkins and then decided to add random songs after that.
Waiting for Relief (14 March 2009) – 85:41
1. Tears for Fears – "Everybody Wants to Rule the World"
2. Arcade Fire – "Keep the Car Running"
3. Jars of Clay – "Love Is the Protest"
4. Franz Ferdinand – "Turn It On"
5. Jimmy Eat World – "Bleed American / Salt Sweat Sugar"
6. Smash Mouth – "Then the Morning Comes"
7. Red Hot Chili Peppers – "Road Trippin' "
8. Adam Again – "River on Fire"
9. Pearl Jam – "Black"
10. Oasis – "Falling Down"
11. Queens of the Stone Age – "The Sky Is Fallin' "
12. Neon Horse – "Crazy Daisy"
13. Tait – "Electric Avenue"
14. Boston – "Peace of Mind"
15. Beck – "E-Pro"
16. Mute Math – "Chaos"
17. Pink Floyd – "Keep Talking"
18. Kevin Max – "Stay"
19. dc Talk – "Red Letters"
20. Adam Again – "Don't Cry"
I stayed at my friend's place immediately before and after the mission trip. The weekend after the trip I woke up ridiculously early Saturday morning and had to take a leak like no other. My friend's apartment is kind of odd, though, in that its bathrooms are contained within the bedrooms. Even though one wasn't in a bedroom I didn't know its owner, and so I didn't want to be using the bathroom and then have him wake up and have to use it—you get the idea. I tried to go back to sleep but that didn't work, so I kept my mind occupied by making this playlist. When the roommate finally left I used his bathroom.
The Soundtrack That Never Got Played (20 March 2009) – 52:06
1. Wolfmother – "Joker & the Thief"
2. Queens of the Stone Age – "A Song for the Dead"
3. Franz Ferdinand – "Lucid Dreams"
4. Jars of Clay – "Revolution"
5. Kevin Max – "Out of the Wild"
6. Led Zeppelin – "The Song Remains the Same"
7. Oasis – "The Masterplan"
8. Radiohead – "Exit Music (For a Film)"
9. Jimmy Eat World – "Get It Faster"
10. The Dave Brubeck Quartet – "Unsquare Dance"
11. The Police – "Murder by Numbers"
When I went home to Orlando for the weekend I rode down with Kaylee and Megan. They were swapping their iPods and playing just about every kind of music that they could sing along to. I didn't know the words to much of anything they played, so they told me to make my own playlist or something along those lines. They ended up coming across the Dixie Chicks on one of their iPods, though, and by the time it was over we were close enough to home that I didn't want to start my playlist, hence its name. It did, however, get played on the ride back. And I'm not sure why I used the word soundtrack.
The Soundtrack That Really Never Got Played (22 March 2009) – 55:51
1. Mute Math – "Typical"
2. Aerosmith – "Back in the Saddle"
3. Arctic Monkeys – "Brianstorm"
4. Van Halen – "Panama"
5. Gnarls Barkley – "Would-Be Killer"
6. Deep Purple – "Space Truckin' "
7. Led Zeppelin – "We're Gonna Groove"
8. The Smashing Pumpkins – "We Only Come Out at Night"
9. Smash Mouth – "Walkin' on the Sun"
10. ZZ Top – "Cheap Sunglasses"
11. Oasis – "Some Might Say"
12. Red Hot Chili Peppers – "Dani California"
13. Pink Floyd – "High Hopes"
When we began the ride back Megan somehow remembered that my playlist didn't get played. She wanted to play it right off but I said I'd make a better playlist, because the original had too many slow songs (which Kaylee says make her sleepy while driving—you do the math). I put this one together in a hurry, and by the time Megan asked for my iPod I decided the original playlist was better after all, and so this is the playlist that truly went unheard. Also, "Would-Be Killer" was supposed to be "Run (I'm a Natural Disaster)," but my iPod decided to scroll to the wrong song, and I didn't feel like starting over.
Current Location: Tallahassee, FL
Current Music: The Smashing Pumpkins – “1979”
March 4th, 2009
11:23 pm - The end of the war is not near
Mr. Speaker, the end of the war is not near. I might ask, are the troops coming home from Iraq as promised? Not quite. Sixteen months is too quick, so the plan now is to do it in thirty-four months. The administration claims all the troops will be out of Iraq by the end of 2011. Sure they will. We’re told that 50,000 U.S. troops will still be in Iraq in August of 2010, and we’re supposed to cheer. We’re told that they won’t be combat troops, so we’re to believe that means they won’t be exposed to any danger. If they are non-combat troops, does that mean they are bureaucrats, policemen, teachers, or soldiers without weapons?
This will hardly satisfy the Iraqis, who resent any foreign troops at all in their country. A U.S. puppet government protected by 50,000 American soldiers is not the road to peace. Would the Iranian-friendly Shiite majority not be motivated to take advantage of the instability we have created? Will the 100,000 Sunni militants we arm and subsidize continue to obey our wishes?
It sounds to me like a powder keg exists with the indecisiveness of our Iraqi policy. There is no intention to close [down] the dozens of military bases that now exist. The world’s biggest embassy will remain in Baghdad and incite continued resentment toward the American occupation. Our soldiers will remain easy targets of the rightfully angry nationalists. Our presence will serve as an incentive for al-Qaeda to grow in numbers and motivate more suicide bombers.
An indefinite presence, whether in Iraq, Afghanistan, or Pakistan, will continue to drain our financial resources, undermine our national defense, demoralize our military, and exacerbate our financial crisis. All this will be welcomed by Osama bin Laden, just as he planned it—and actually more than he had hoped for.
More likely, the outcome will be that greater than 50,000 Americans will be in Iraq in august of 2010, especially when the contractors are counted. Violence will accelerate. We will be an occupier at the end of 2011, and we will remain a pariah in the Middle East. The war in Afghanistan and Pakistan will be much bigger—unless the dollar follows the path of the dollar-based world financial system, and collapses into runaway inflation. In this case, the laws of economics and the realities of history will prove superior to the madness of maintaining a world empire financed by scraps of paper.
Our military prowess, backed by a nuclear arsenal, will not suffice in overcoming the tragedy of a currency crisis. Soviet nukes did not preserve its empire or the communist economy. This crisis demands that we quickly come to our senses and reject the foreign policy of interventionism. Neither credit coming from a Federal Reserve computer nor dollars coming from a printing press can bail us out of this mess—only the rule of law, commodity money, and liberty can do that.
Mr. Speaker, let’s consider reinstating the Constitution before it’s too late.
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This will hardly satisfy the Iraqis, who resent any foreign troops at all in their country. A U.S. puppet government protected by 50,000 American soldiers is not the road to peace. Would the Iranian-friendly Shiite majority not be motivated to take advantage of the instability we have created? Will the 100,000 Sunni militants we arm and subsidize continue to obey our wishes?
It sounds to me like a powder keg exists with the indecisiveness of our Iraqi policy. There is no intention to close [down] the dozens of military bases that now exist. The world’s biggest embassy will remain in Baghdad and incite continued resentment toward the American occupation. Our soldiers will remain easy targets of the rightfully angry nationalists. Our presence will serve as an incentive for al-Qaeda to grow in numbers and motivate more suicide bombers.
An indefinite presence, whether in Iraq, Afghanistan, or Pakistan, will continue to drain our financial resources, undermine our national defense, demoralize our military, and exacerbate our financial crisis. All this will be welcomed by Osama bin Laden, just as he planned it—and actually more than he had hoped for.
More likely, the outcome will be that greater than 50,000 Americans will be in Iraq in august of 2010, especially when the contractors are counted. Violence will accelerate. We will be an occupier at the end of 2011, and we will remain a pariah in the Middle East. The war in Afghanistan and Pakistan will be much bigger—unless the dollar follows the path of the dollar-based world financial system, and collapses into runaway inflation. In this case, the laws of economics and the realities of history will prove superior to the madness of maintaining a world empire financed by scraps of paper.
Our military prowess, backed by a nuclear arsenal, will not suffice in overcoming the tragedy of a currency crisis. Soviet nukes did not preserve its empire or the communist economy. This crisis demands that we quickly come to our senses and reject the foreign policy of interventionism. Neither credit coming from a Federal Reserve computer nor dollars coming from a printing press can bail us out of this mess—only the rule of law, commodity money, and liberty can do that.
Mr. Speaker, let’s consider reinstating the Constitution before it’s too late.
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Current Location: Tallahassee, FL
Current Music: Jars of Clay – “Silence”
February 21st, 2009
12:06 pm - My good friend Levek. Check out his music.
Current Location: Tallahassee, FL
Current Music: Levek – “Train”
February 18th, 2009
11:29 am - The direct method
Current Location: Tallahassee, FL
Current Music: Radiohead – OK Computer
February 1st, 2009
02:00 am
So let's all sing, sing a song of love
Sing until our throats bleed
And if this could could speak he would say
I don't need anybody, I don't anyone
I don't need your guidance home
Watch as I build my empire
Watch as I rise and fall
Watch as I fight all alone
Sing until our throats bleed
And if this could could speak he would say
I don't need anybody, I don't anyone
I don't need your guidance home
Watch as I build my empire
Watch as I rise and fall
Watch as I fight all alone
Current Location: Tallahasssee, FL
Current Music: Project 86 – “Little Green Men”
January 30th, 2009
02:55 am - La nostalgia ed il umorismo
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Current Location: Tallahassee, FL
Current Music: Emery – I’m Only a Man
November 25th, 2008
03:05 am
I’ll get back to you soon.
Current Location: Tallahassee, FL
Current Music: Ace Troubleshooter – “Make It Right”
November 22nd, 2008
August 31st, 2008
03:45 pm
Oh, say, does that star-spangled banner yet wave over the land of the free and the home of the brave?
- The Raw Story – “Bush quietly seeks to make war powers permanent by declaring indefinite state of war”
- Salon.com – “Massive police raids on suspected protestors in Minneapolis”
- Salon.com – “Federal government involved in raids on protestors”
- Twin Cities Indymedia – “Illegal police raid on anti-R.N.C. convergence space in St. Paul”
Current Location: Tallahassee, FL
Current Music: Franz Ferdinand – “That Was Easy”
August 19th, 2008
11:57 pm - D.E.
The Dialogue of Excuses
It’s too much work.
Everything’s too much work.
The world just needs to slow down.
It’s unbelievably slow, and yet it’s not slow enough.
I’m so tired.
You’re always tired. Everyone’s always tired.
Physically.
Many are beyond tired—exhausted, sick, dying.
Mentally.
Many have tackled problems much greater than a story.
Spiritually.
Paul somehow managed to write all those letters, for one.
I am wrestling with God.
Undeniably important, but should it stifle your output?
Constantly.
You’ve been wrestling for two years. Didn’t seem to be an issue two years ago, or last year.
It’s drained me.
You were drained when you took your first job, but you wrote the pilot.
I have no sense of direction.
Seek it.
I don’t know how. Or where.
Several people—Jorge, Erin, Pastor Chuck, Dave, Adam, David Story, Papa D, the C.O. kids, and so on.
I can’t call them now. I’m in Orlando.
Coward.
Afraid of disappointing everyone around me.
What you’re afraid they’ll think will suspend your work and threaten your salvation?!
I’m petrified.
Crack your Bible, then. Pray.
It’s too much work.
I’m so tired.
Physically, mentally, spiritually—because I’m wrestling with God.
Constantly.
It’s drained me.
I don’t know what to do.
I can’t call anyone for guidance.
I’ll disappoint everyone around me.
I’m petrified.
Then you are hopeless.
It’s too much work.
Everything’s too much work.
The world just needs to slow down.
It’s unbelievably slow, and yet it’s not slow enough.
I’m so tired.
You’re always tired. Everyone’s always tired.
Physically.
Many are beyond tired—exhausted, sick, dying.
Mentally.
Many have tackled problems much greater than a story.
Spiritually.
Paul somehow managed to write all those letters, for one.
I am wrestling with God.
Undeniably important, but should it stifle your output?
Constantly.
You’ve been wrestling for two years. Didn’t seem to be an issue two years ago, or last year.
It’s drained me.
You were drained when you took your first job, but you wrote the pilot.
I have no sense of direction.
Seek it.
I don’t know how. Or where.
Several people—Jorge, Erin, Pastor Chuck, Dave, Adam, David Story, Papa D, the C.O. kids, and so on.
I can’t call them now. I’m in Orlando.
Coward.
Afraid of disappointing everyone around me.
What you’re afraid they’ll think will suspend your work and threaten your salvation?!
I’m petrified.
Crack your Bible, then. Pray.
It’s too much work.
I’m so tired.
Physically, mentally, spiritually—because I’m wrestling with God.
Constantly.
It’s drained me.
I don’t know what to do.
I can’t call anyone for guidance.
I’ll disappoint everyone around me.
I’m petrified.
Then you are hopeless.
Current Location: Orlando, FL
Current Music: Adam Again – “Dig,” “Hopeless, Etc.”
August 16th, 2008
03:23 pm - Hidden. . . hidden. . . . This is how it is.
"Hidden, Hidden"
Adam Again
Dig
See
The way I feel
Is hidden, hidden
The way I feel
It's time
If you'd reveal
What's hidden, hidden
Is it time?
What have I missed?
Make me a list
I can try, but you resist
Stir my soul, dig me a hole
I can't move what you control
Still
I'm afraid to hear it
It's hidden, hidden
I'm afraid to hear it
I feel fine, sevens and nines
You can offer, I'll decline
Drop my guard, heavy and hard
I will treasure what you discard
Hit me in the head, send me to bed
I forgot what you just said
Make my day—send me away
Send me away, send me away
Yes, we ought to talk about it
What I need to say is
What I mean to say is
I don't want to talk about it
Though I can see the future
I prefer to close my eyes
Show me a sign, boggle my mind
Water burns as I decide
Teardrops stained, pleasure and pain
You are different, I'm the same
What have I missed?
Make me a list
I can try, but you resist
Save my soul, dig me a hole
I can't move what you control
I feel fine, sevens and nines
You can offer, I'll decline
Drop my guard, heavy and hard
I will treasure what you discard
Hit me in the head, send me to bed
I forgot what you just said
Make my day—send me away
Send me away, send me away
I fear
That it could destroy me
When you reveal
What's hidden, hidden
Adam Again
Dig
See
The way I feel
Is hidden, hidden
The way I feel
It's time
If you'd reveal
What's hidden, hidden
Is it time?
What have I missed?
Make me a list
I can try, but you resist
Stir my soul, dig me a hole
I can't move what you control
Still
I'm afraid to hear it
It's hidden, hidden
I'm afraid to hear it
I feel fine, sevens and nines
You can offer, I'll decline
Drop my guard, heavy and hard
I will treasure what you discard
Hit me in the head, send me to bed
I forgot what you just said
Make my day—send me away
Send me away, send me away
Yes, we ought to talk about it
What I need to say is
What I mean to say is
I don't want to talk about it
Though I can see the future
I prefer to close my eyes
Show me a sign, boggle my mind
Water burns as I decide
Teardrops stained, pleasure and pain
You are different, I'm the same
What have I missed?
Make me a list
I can try, but you resist
Save my soul, dig me a hole
I can't move what you control
I feel fine, sevens and nines
You can offer, I'll decline
Drop my guard, heavy and hard
I will treasure what you discard
Hit me in the head, send me to bed
I forgot what you just said
Make my day—send me away
Send me away, send me away
I fear
That it could destroy me
When you reveal
What's hidden, hidden
Current Location: Orlando, FL
Current Music: Adam Again – “Hidden, Hidden”
August 13th, 2008
11:30 pm
I close my eyes, struggling and inevitably failing to concoct a cocktail of words and phrases. I die every time I cannot express myself, and being able to occasionally eke out my thoughts is not much help. My mind, my thoughts, my desires, my passions, my cognitive constructions—they are a chowder, and I am a clumsy toddler sifting through the chowder with a set of chopsticks, hoping my tiresome work will produce for me a morsel of clam meat.
Understanding any of my thoughts is an exercise in frustration, examining them is feckless, and expressing myself so I am understood is nigh impossible.
Peace has eluded me for quite some time now. My mind is rarely at ease. Who am I? Where have I been? Was I ever changed? I will not know peace until I can answer those questions, and they all come back to the status of my faith. Is it real? Was I transformed by God’s grace and Christ’s sacrifice? I am utterly unable to see a meaningful transformation at any point in my life.
If this be the case, then I will not know peace until God changes me. And until I know peace, my mind will remain a chowder.
( Some Adam Again lyrics might be of use. . . )
Understanding any of my thoughts is an exercise in frustration, examining them is feckless, and expressing myself so I am understood is nigh impossible.
Peace has eluded me for quite some time now. My mind is rarely at ease. Who am I? Where have I been? Was I ever changed? I will not know peace until I can answer those questions, and they all come back to the status of my faith. Is it real? Was I transformed by God’s grace and Christ’s sacrifice? I am utterly unable to see a meaningful transformation at any point in my life.
If this be the case, then I will not know peace until God changes me. And until I know peace, my mind will remain a chowder.
( Some Adam Again lyrics might be of use. . . )
Current Location: Orlando, FL
Current Music: Adam Again – “Dig”
08:14 pm - This is exactly how I feel. This is exactly how I have felt for quite a long time.
“I don’t have a line of prospects / That can give some kind of peace / There is nothing left to cling to / That can bring me sweet release / I have no fear of drowning / It’s the breathing / That’s taking all this work / Do you know / What I mean / When I say, / ‘I don’t want to be alone’? / What I mean / When I say, / ‘I don’t want to be alone’?”
—“Work” by Jars of Clay
Current Location: Orlando, FL
Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Chevelle – “Open/Point #1”
July 25th, 2008
07:02 pm - I don’t care how old this video is. It’s a nice distraction.
Current Location: Orlando, FL
Current Music: David Levesque – “Flume”
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